A Sister's Life Changing Experience Of Faith And Hope Part Twenty Seven

I see on the school's website that there isn't school today, so I take this time to create an online fundraiser for not only my sister but for the other families that go through this. I put in the description that the money is going to go to the charities that help people like my sister so they can find a cure. I tell them how my sister has passed away and how it has made me feel, but I tell them everything will be okay. I set it up and then log out of the account. I then check any emails I may have gotten. There was one from the girl's cousin, and one from the news station. I open the one from the news station first. It simply reads: Good morning, we are just sending out a reminder that the holiday story piece we worked on yesterday will be airing tonight. We hope you enjoy watching with your family as much as we will be enjoying watching from the news station here. One of our news team reporters will be tweeting as some of you high school kids say, but they know twitter better than I do. Anyway the program will air at seven this evening, so be sure to tune into channel 10 for KRLSN News to watch the special. Sincerely, the KRLSN NEWS TEAM. I now look at the email from the girls cousin, and it reads: It is with a heavy heart that my cousin has passed away early this morning, her mom, which is my aunt notified me by the same email you stayed in contact with them by. You must know that before we even met your family, my cousin has been on a very long journey with this and that she did her best for us to keep fighting but now she can rejoice and be happy in Heaven with Jesus and reunite with Him. Please keep our family in your prayers as we will keep your family in ours. The news station knows about it but they are not making any changes to our holiday piece. The only thing we have asked them to add for us, and for you guys is a in loving memory of, well we got permission from your parents of course and they thought that was wonderful and agreed to it. So that is what the news station will do and they're still going with it as planned where it airs all the time, so that people can be inspired by it and touched by a story that is inspirational. Who knows where this will lead to, but all I know is that I'm here if you ever like to talk. I know what you're going through right now, and I could always use a friend to talk with. I reply, so could I. She leaves it at that. That same day it had come time for the holiday special, and my family and I cried and smiled but I sent out a tweet to the news reporter who was tweeting, thank you for everything you have done. The special was great. The news reporter quickly replies I'm glad and this was and is an amazing story. I go and check the online fundraiser and I can see already over a million people have donated to it. My whole family has been overwhelmed with the support other people we know and love and others we hardly know, have donated to a cause that will help those find a cure my sister and a new friend have gone through. I log back out of the account and just hang out with my family for the rest of the day as we count down to the new year. It is now the beginning year of 2008 and we have decided that we're grateful and thankful for the time we got to spend with the one we love. We have closure now because we know that we have Jesus but we also know we have other family and friends that we can talk to, but we mainly know that Jesus will take care of our fears and our hurt and our sadness we have in our hearts. Although, my sister would have wanted us to be happy and not cry over her loss. So we're going to try our best to remember her with happiness rather than sadness. We're going to honor her in all of our activities we do as a family and I am going to remember that my faith and my hope have gotten stronger everyday because I know that it was God who has helped me throughout all of this and because of that I will know that it's the good memories and not the bad that get you through the  best of times. I pray and hope that as you have followed our journey and my sister's journey that you have learned something from all of this. Now does this mean her legacy of what used to be is over? No, it just means that this chapter for me telling our story to all of you is done. So as I say goodbye, I hope you remember our story and remember all of us as we have for all of you. Sequel: It's been a long time since I've written on here again, as I know I've probably said goodbye in a different chapter. I know that you've probably needed a new update and that is what I'm going to give. It's been a long time since my sister has passed but in that time we've done well and even though the news has stopped airing the special, and we decided not to go towards the television business of making it a show, we have gotten mail from people who have been going through what we have and we've even had the girl's aunt and the girl I had met at a competition over for occasions. We have always wanted them to feel welcome, since they had been praying for us like we have for them. In other news, that online fundraiser of mine has ended and the money has been sent to people who will work on finding a cure so that no one else has to go through what we have in the past year. My sister's story is still being told by myself and all of my family members and the story of the girl's cousin who had passed later on. I believe we have more to our stories because God created us in His Image and He is still working in our lives, helping us reveal the next chapter in our lives. Prequel: So now this is going to be a final update on us, we're doing well and the one girl's family is going to go with us on a trip to where we're going to share her cousin's story as well as my sister's story. Their legacies are going to live on forever because we're going to be sharing every impact that they had on us, as well as others that had come into their lives. We hope to make a difference in their families lives as well as any kids who have been going through what they have had to go through. So we just wanted to say thank you for one last time, because having many people follow this has been a blessing and it has been wonderful to know that a lot of people have supported this journey as well.

A Sister's Life Changing Experience Of Faith And Hope Part Twenty Six

We all decide to travel home early and as we're we see a news reporter coming towards us before any of us could get to the bus. The news reporter spots me and the other girl I had met and she says that she would like to do a story piece on us. Then she tells us how both of our parents have told them the story of how we met and how my sister's story was relate able to the girl's cousin and they would like me to do a story piece on how it's helped my faith and helped me with hope. They then tell the other girl they would like to a piece with her where she tells about her cousin's journey in continuing to fight and would like to interview both of us, and just get our perspective on how we met and will we continue to stay in touch. Next the reporter tells us that once they finish the piece that we do with them, they will work on it and let us know when it will air on television and if it does well with the news then they know somebody in the television business that would love to create a holiday special that would continue to air through out this month and would continue to air throughout years to come. We glance at each other and then back at families we know and love and then we agree. The coach tells the team to go with her to the bus and they will be waiting. Our families however, are standing off to the side a little because the news reporter had already gotten the things they needed from them, which was the stories of the two people we have mentioned. Now they want us to tell them everything that I've just mentioned. I go first. The news reporter starts asking me questions about what it was like to grow up in my household. I answer, with how it was always a delightful and memorable experience growing up with a family who has so much faith and hope in God, because our parents have taught us that when things get rough and we don't know where to go, always turn to Jesus and He'll be there to catch us and when we're feeling down to pray to Him because He always listens to our prayers. She asks me then on how I felt when my sister had been diagnosed and how I felt when I found out about the things she had been born with. I told her that it made me sad, because my brother was in the army and everything up till now and it would be hard to watch someone you love be in and out of the hospital so many times, only to find out that she had something else. I tell her how I felt when she never did get to return back to school and do the thing she got chosen for. I start tearing up, because it's making me emotional to talk but I continue on. I continue with talking about how it was hard to take over in a position that was made for my sister. I tell her when I would find out that she was born with another syndrome that would make her go to a different hospital further away from her earthly home, I felt sad because I truly felt the treatments would work and she would be home and when she got transported back, well I thought our local hospital would send her home in the morning, but to find out the news that she passed, well it was like a feeling of grief because my best friend was taken away from me. She then asks, if my faith and hope have grown stronger since my sister's passing. I answer with, yes because my sister if you knew her, was a joy and caring person to have around and you couldn't help but smile when she was in the room. Even though she fought for a long time, she's in Heaven not hurting and that's the way things need to be because it was in God's timing that He called her home to Heaven and we know everything will be okay. She thanks me and then goes to talk with the girl. The girl tells her story and we're crying silently, because we never really knew how much the girl's cousin's story was similar to Blake and I's sister. Once she finishes, we both share how we met and how we would stay in touch because having a friend that understands something like what we've been through, but mainly to know what my sister has been through, is a rare find. When I say a rare find I mean it's rare to know that there would be somebody out there that shares the same hurt, the same worry and so being able to have met and become friends at a competition like this has been an incredible journey. The news reporter thanks us and tells us that they have everything they need. We say goodbye to the news people, and then our families say goodbye to one another. The girl gets on the bus she came on and so do I, and as for my entire family I watch them follow us from behind. The girl's parents follow behind the bus the girl is in and finally my sister's teammates and I arrive at home and I send an email letting the mother of the girl's cousin that her daughter would have been proud and our family prayers for all of you daily. The mother replies, thank you we need it and my daughter is resting now but so glad you got to meet her cousin at the competition. I leave it at that and I spend time with my family, talking to them about how I want to create an online fundraiser to help people like our sister, so that their families can know that no matter what it may seem like or feel like right now, that they're never alone in this world. My family agrees and they couldn't be more proud in what I have done this year, because that's who we are a loving and caring family who believes in God and trusts in Him that God is worthy and loving.

A Sister's Life Changing Experience Of Faith And Hope Part Twenty Five

The next morning, we eat breakfast at the hotel and go over the routine again. Then we get ready to leave the hotel to go back to where we preformed last night. Today was a Christmas Morning performance and I couldn't believe it, this was the last day preforming at a place like this. This was the last day that I would be performing with my sister's team. I mean was this the life changing experience I was supposed to fulfill? I mean was this what God's plan was for my life? I kept thinking about this, after we arrived to our destination. We practice for a bit, while Blake, my aunt, and parents take their seats. The girl from the one team comes over and says to me that no matter what you're fortunate to have a brother, you're blessed to have an aunt, uncle, cousins, and parents that are here to support you. She says if her cousin were here today instead of in the hospital again then she would be saying to any of us that when God calls us for a purpose we may not be able to see, when He is working among us and calling to us, that is when we should be praying and praying that God knows what is best for us. She goes back to her team and the competition director says our team is up first. Right after we finished, we watched the other team that was here the other night. We were happy to know that no matter who preformed that it was all going towards a good cause. I thought about what the one girl told me today and all I could about was how she was right. I thought about how I knew I was blessed to be celebrating Christmas with my family, I knew I was blessed to have celebrated Christmas Eve with them too. I knew that I was blessed to know if my sister was here that we would be truly blessed to know that she would tell us everything was alright because before she passed away, I somehow knew from when I did see her that one night, that she somehow knew mom and everyone were going to be alright, and I think the reason for that is because God knows that we're going to be okay as long as we believe in Him and we know that He can do all things. He knows that we have hurt when we are in grieving, but He is there for us. He knows when we're in danger and He protects us. He knows that when we pray to Him, He hears us loud and clear. He knows our needs, because He created us in His image and our faith and hope need to grow stronger everyday. So why would I tell you this? Well, because when we heard the director call both teams up towards him, we knew that a plaque for both of the teams would be donated to our school in honor of a family member. So the one girl got the plaque in honor of her cousin and we got ours in honor of my sister. We all went back to the hotel and ate supper together, and then we went to our hotel rooms to go to sleep, because we knew that we would be traveling back home again, early tomorrow morning.

A Sister's Life Changing Experience Of Faith And Hope Part Twenty Four

It's the day of the Christmas Eve cheering event, and everyone in my family are going to be there. I love my family because they're always supporting each other and we always are there for another. I'm already up and in the uniform, my sister once had. Yes, I know what you're thinking but ever since my sister was here on earth we could and would share different outfits with each other. Anyway, I leave a note saying I ate breakfast already but I'll see you soon. I leave and I get to the school, and we go through the routine one more time. Next, we get on the buss, and I'm nervous as ever and I wonder if that is what it feels like when somebody's feeling under the weather. We get to the hotel, as we get off the bus and we practice again, because it's always a must. We eat in the hotel as we all packed our own lunch, and then we get back on the bus, and drive to the destination. We get to the place that we will be preforming as we get there, we check in and we tell the director that I'm filling in. We tell him that my sister has passed and then we tell who it's dedicated for. He writes all of the information and tells us the time to come back and then I whispered if it would be okay to practice here, and he looked at me and told me yes, which I heard loud and clear. So we practiced and we practiced a lot, and then out of the corner of my eye, I saw all of my family. I run up to them and give them all a hug. They show me the program of when we preform, I'm excited and nervous all at the same time. They told me not to be nervous and to enjoy because pretty soon, I'll bringing people all kinds of joy. They take their seats and I go back to where the team is. They look nervous as I did a minute ago. I see that they're nervous because a different team is here and I see a girl about my age coming over to talk to me. She says to me, I heard about your sister from a cousin of mine. You may know her, as she met you and your family not that long ago. She tells me that she knows it's the same girl whose her cousin because she knows her cousin has mentioned on the phone that she has emailed me and everything. She thanks me for doing that, because she tells me that her cousin could use some friends that understand what people like her have gone through. She greets her aunt and her cousin at the door, but said good luck because no matter the outcome we're all doing this for charity and for the people all over the world and for the ones we love. She then says goodbye, and walks away. We sit alongside the floor as we watch them preform, but no one knew that it was only us against them. I guess that's all the people here had room for, because I thought we would be competing against more people. Finally, the routine for them is over, and we're up next. I just hope that I can do my best. We're done preforming, and thank goodness for that as we sit back down, waiting to find out what happens next. The director says thank you for those who came as all of us will preform again tomorrow on Christmas Day. He says drive safe and thanks to those have participated, but remember no matter what, each person that preformed today, is always a winner and that the place we're all in now is going to donate money to the charity and researchers who're trying to find a cure for these illnesses. We all leave the gym and go back to the hotel, as we eat supper with our friends and families. Finally, we go to sleep and because tomorrow is the last day we will be preforming at a gorgeous place like this. I drift off to sleep and then I wake up as I'm thinking of what the one girl mentioned to me.

A Sister's Life Changing Experience Of Faith And Hope Part Twenty Three

Shortly after everything had happened, we all decided to go to bed. The next morning, I got up as I normally did and got myself ready for school. Today was the last day of practice right before I would be preforming with my sister's teammates and knowing that, well maybe this was the life changing experience that was going to test how much hope I had in myself, and how much I had trusted God to help me with my faith. I saw that Blake was up, and he told me that he would take me to school. I didn't argue with him, because I wanted him to be there for me. Blake dropped me off at school and he said that he was going to go to the store a minute and he'll be back to watch the practice. I go into school and I go to all my classes. I go to lunch and then school has already let out. I head to practice and I see Blake who has bought flowers for each of us, including the coach. I see all of my sister's teammates have thanked Blake, and even the coach has too. I thank him and hand him my flowers as I go to practice the routine. Blake sees how important this was to our sister and no matter how much she did, she was always determined to never give up without a fight. I can see it for myself now. It's scary to think how much has changed in the last hour, because even though I know she's not here anymore, she's always going to be with me, and that kind of love for your sister is a bond that can't be broken. I finish the practice and the coach tells us to be here early tomorrow morning, so we can leave to go preform. We tell her okay, as we leave the gym. Blake told me that he couldn't have been more proud of me, carrying on a legacy that our sister would have known to be proud of you for doing. He tells me that the light of hope that I once saw is coming back because I am doing something that will honor our sister, but I'm also honoring God because God's plan for our sister was different, but the plans He has for me, are be presented right now. I know that my sister was my best friend, but why did she have to leave the earth so soon? Why did she have to leave our family behind? Why did she have to go to Heaven and leave us? My brother hears me speaking and asking these questions out loud and his answer to me, is that the reason she left this earth is because she left it peacefully and it was her time to go, she had fought as much as she could and God called her home. She left us behind, because she needed to be in peace and be in Heaven where she is healed. He tells me that even though it feels like she left us, she is still with us by watching over us like God does for us and she is always going to be there in our hearts, just like God is in our hearts. He tells me it's okay to feel sad, and it's okay to feel upset, but remember the happy times, instead of the bad times. I start to smile because I know he's right, and as much as I dislike that, I know that what I'm going to be doing tomorrow is going to be in honor of my sister, and it will be dedicated to her and everyone else who is still going through the same things she had to go through, even if the cases are less severe or mild. I know that doing this tomorrow is going to make a difference for everybody, including myself.

A Sister's Life Changing Experience Of Faith And Hope Part Twenty Two

The funeral is over, and friends said goodbye, and only the family was left to have a private burial together, not too far from church so that we could have our time to grieve and mourn the loss of a cousin, sister, niece, and daughter. The casket was lowered into the ground as we silently prayed with the pastor who gave us peace to remember that this isn't a forever goodbye, but a see you till God calls all of us home. The burial was over and we all went back to the house and ate some lunch and told memories till it was time to go to bed. The next morning, while everyone slept, I got up and got ready for school. I knew it was going to be hard the first day but it was what my sister would have wanted me to do. I go to school and I finish all of my classes. I finally go to the practice and I cheer with a smile on my face and I do the routine with grace. I know my sister watching down on me from Heaven, would be telling me, even when we're sad just remember God always has a plan. I finish the routine and I know the girls are sad, but I assure them of what my sister would have said, and then that made them glad. They gave me a hug, they wiped the tears from their eyes, and reminded me that it's okay to cry sometimes. They left the gym as they knew it was time to go home. The coach stopped me for a moment, and said I know it's been tough, but just know that you are doing a wonderful thing and that you're making a difference. A difference where you have to have faith to be strong and courageous, and have hope and know that God is going to help you through this time. I tell her thank you as I start to cry a little, and just as I do I know she is hugging me, while saying no matter the struggle, no matter the pain, God is taking care of you and your family and that is something that is never going away. I felt better and wiped my tears away, and I told her thank you and she said your welcome. I arrive home, and just as I do my cousins are thrilled because they said we have something for you. They told me to sit on the couch and to close my eyes, because this was a special surprise. So I told them okay, as I awaited with glee, as I'm wondering in my head, what it is my cousins could have gotten me. They told me to open my eyes and when I did, I saw a beautiful photo and scripture quilt that my aunt and uncle and the cousins had made with loving care. I knew that the scriptures on the quilt were my sister's favorites, and the photos were everything family photo that was taken, including some special photos of Blake, my sister, and I. I thank them all, because this gift is special and it came from people I love and care about most, and that is something I'll treasure most. I treasure it forever and always, because my sister was special, and she is always in our hearts.

A Sister's Life Changing Experience Of Faith And Hope Part Twenty One

Today is going to be a long day, because today is my sister's funeral. We decided to have the funeral and calling hours today because we want to honor her memory in living on how she never would complain. The calling hours are this morning, following the church service to do the funeral. I saw my mom and aunt Vivian this morning. I saw them getting ready. Then just as everyone is getting ready, I hear a slight knock at the door. I go to answer, and it's my uncle Jarred who has decided he was not going to miss being at his own niece's funeral and calling hours. He sees aunt Vivian and walks over to her. She embraces him tightly as she knows how hard this day is going to be for all of us. Then I hear the door knock once more. I now have been shocked an slightly surprised to see Malory, David, Callie, Shelly, Sheryl, Carol, Holly, Mason, Callie, Darla, Danny, Nancy, Nicole, Nathan, Justin, Jack, Jackie, Lily, Annie, and Emanuel, who are our cousins. Mom and Dad greet every single one of them and thank them for coming at short notice. They say that things like this will get better, but you can see each one of us is struggling to put on a brave face today. Blake who is old enough to drive, takes mom, dad, myself, and uncle Jarred in one car. Then aunt Vivian takes Danny, Darla, Callie, Holly Nicole, Nathan, and Nancy in another car. Then Mason our cousin who is old enough takes, David, Malory, Callie, Shelly Sheryl, Carol, Annie, Emanuel, Justin, Jack, Jackie, and Lily in the other. We get to our church where the directors of a funeral parlor that my parents had met with before we would find out that my sister had passed, were waiting for us. So that anyone who was family could see my sister, one last time and say goodbye as a proper way of doing things in private. The casket is only open for viewing only for those who could be here as a family. Blake hugs me and I hug him tight, as I whisper gently for my sister in Heaven to hear. I gently whisper as Blake knows, that the thing I'm whispering will forever remain in my heart and left unknown for friends who come today, because the thing I whispered was sweet dreams, till we see each other again, because your Heaven reuniting with Jesus who saved us from our sins. I go with Blake to sit down in our seat, as I watch all of my cousins silently cry and kneel by the casket praying that their cousin, my sister in Heaven can hear them saying goodbye to a beautiful girl, who is rejoicing with a heartfelt smile. They sit with us, and some of them in the row behind, as they now watch Uncle Jarred and Aunt Vivian saying goodbye to a niece who was very well loved. Uncle Jarred and Aunt Vivian they sit in the row behind, as it is now our parents turn to say goodbye to a loving daughter that was compassionate and smart. They said their goodbyes, they sat beside us, as they watched and we all the casket close before us. The people who came to pay their respects told us how sorry they were and she'll be truly missed. We've allowed some close friends to sit in the first two rows with where we sat, so that we could remember how blessed and how thankful we truly are. The crowd of people who filled every row, was a honor and blessing, because my sister would've wanted to let everyone know that no matter how far or who we are, this is just an earthly home, and someday we will be together in Heaven even if it seems like it's far. The pastor spoke with loving and care and then we each shared memories, and sang a few songs, and then prayed as we knew that prayer is always a great thing to do. I hope that my sister sees me somehow because I wish she would know that I'm trying my best.

A Sister's Life Changing Experience Of Faith And Hope Part Twenty

We all went to bed, after we prayed and then the next morning our parents got a call. Aunt Vivian was comforting mom as dad answered the phone. It was the doctor from the hospital. Blake now holds me in his arms as we await to hear the news of what the doctor is telling dad. Dad hangs up and asks to see Aunt Vivian with mom, outside for a moment. I know that can't be good. Blake takes his arms away from me and starts to walk over to the kitchen window, looking down at the sink as if he was trying not to think of anything else. I however pace back and forth trying to think that there can only be and should only be good news. My dad comes in and then aunt Vivian with mom who looks sad. I could only think of what has happened but I try not to think of the worst case possible. Dad asks Blake to come outside with him and then Blake comes back in, sitting on the other side of aunt Vivian also like he's seen a ghost. My dad then asks me to come into the living room, where we can be out of earshot and then the news my dad tells me, hits me like a brick. It makes me fall to my knees. It makes me angry inside, but the anger inside of me isn't that I'm mad but rather an anger of how the goodbye was so soon. I cry, and cry. My dad kneels beside and comforts me. He tells me that even though my sister has fought and fought for life, sometime last night through early this morning, was her time to gain her angel wings. She's not suffering from any pain and that it is a blessing that she passed peacefully in her sleep. I couldn't really understand what he meant by that because I was in shock from everything that seemed like yesterday was happy. I know that my sister wouldn't want me to be sad, but I can't help that my emotions are getting the best of me. I hate that feeling but what am I supposed to do? I mean there is only three or four practices left, and then it's the big day. Well it would have been my sister's big day to preform in front of all those people. I mean what would my sister do if she were here? I just can't imagine anything right now. I then hear my cell ring and it's the coach from my sister's practices. I answer and the first thing that comes out of the coach's mouth, is I'm so sorry to hear about the passing of your sister, it was and had been an honor working with her. I say thank you for the kind words, and then she says that all of her teammates have loved having me fill in for my sister and voted that I should be the Christmas Spirit Cheerleader and preform at the Christmas Land Of All Things Beautiful Christmas Spirit Center with them and all I can say is thank you and I accept. I feel like this is something my sister would have wanted me to do and then we hang up. My dad then says to me that he is so proud of me, and then we go back into the kitchen and go over all the memories we have had with her and then I see an email that says my daughter heard the news from your mom, and we're so sorry but my daughter is thinking about attending the Christmas Eve and Christmas Day events that are happening when you preform the routine, and to let you know that she is thinking of all of you during this time, even though we have only known you and your family for a short amount of time. I shortly reply, thanks. 

A Sister's Life Changing Experience Of Faith And Hope Part Nineteen

I learn that from the phone call I had with my brother, not moments ago that the reason my sister is going to be at our local hospital, is that she has to be monitored overnight because of what seemed to be cured. I knew that it felt like a million pricks being jabbed into my sister's arm or mine for that matter. Aunt Vivian said to me that she got a new update that they had just arrived back with my sister. I figured she would be tired and wouldn't want to see me. Blake texts back to my aunt Vivian that our sister wants to see me very much and that it is quite the opposite of what I think. I go to the hospital with my aunt and I see my sister laying in a hospital bed in the hospital room and I'm starting to cry tears of happiness because I've missed my sister so much and now that she's back here, I love being reunited with one of my best friends. My sister notices the tears and she starts to cry too. She motions me over and we hug like we haven't hugged in forever. I ask her how she is. She tells me fine. I ask her what it's like to not have been in pain. Although before she can answer, she's throwing up. I think oh no, what else can be next. What could possibly be wrong. The doctor comes in. The doctor asks to speak to our aunt and parents in private. Blake stays here with both of us. I put my head gently on his shoulder. He wraps his arm around me, as I pray silently that God helps us through this. Blake watches our sister who has finished throwing up, as the doctor and our parents come in. Our parents ask  to speak to Blake and I out in the hallway alone. I know that can't be great news. The doctor stays with our sister as we follow our parents. The first thing once we're out of earshot, is Blake politely asks what this is all about. I look at him as if I'm trying to be brave for all of us. I don't know what to do but I turn back towards our parents as I listen and watch what they're about to say. The doctor told them that our sister's been diganosed in a short amount of time with stage 3 relapse disorder which means what the doctors in Washington was cured and gone has come back. They also say that because she's in stage 3 that there is going to be times where she vomits and when she's going to feel tired. The disorder is like a different version of a child or grown up that goes through cancer treatments. My sister is going to be monitored over night because of everything that happened. I can't imagine my life without her, and I ask how long will she have to stay here? I ask if she'll be able to preform? I need to know these things, because if she can't then what happens then. I mean do I take over or will another girl on the team be in her position. I just can't think about that right now. I can't, it makes me too sad. I honestly don't know what to do, so I cry silently in my aunt Vivian's arms. I know Blake is crying into my parents arms but I know that he believes everything will be okay. I wish I could still hold onto that light of hope and have that faith, but it's so hard seeing the one you know is your best friend go through something like this, because you love them very much. The same day, we all go home and say goodbye to my sister. We tell her, we'll be back in the morning. She nods her head and drifts off to sleep since it's been a long day. We all go home and start to pray.