A Girl's Journey To Julliard Part Seven

He comes towards me and when he gets to where I'm waiting for my mom, he introduces himself. He tells me his name, he tells me where he goes to school. He tells me his age, and tells me he's visiting his father and was about to visit his mother. He tells me his dad was in kidney trouble but someone donated their kidney and now he has a chance at life. He tells me his mother is on the fifth floor and just had open heart surgery. He tells me who his parents are and I recognize the name for some reason. I wonder if we are related somehow but I can never be too sure. My mom comes out of the room, and says hello to the boy who I just met and says the strangest thing that surprises me, and then it clicks. Our neighbor is his aunt, and that's how we knew each other. I feel ashamed but he tells me not to worry, he asks my mom if it's okay if he takes me to see his mother and and my mom said yes that would be fine, she'll stay here and wait for me to return. We go to the fifth floor and we talk and laugh, and then we walk into his mother's room. His mom sees him right away and then she notices me. She tells us both to come in and sit with her. She asks how my dad and her sister are doing. I tell her that Mrs. Carson, and my dad are fine. She then gives a sigh of relief and then asks her son how dad was doing. He told her he was doing fine and that no matter what, when everyone is able to come home, he's going to make sure that he does well in school, and that he is going to go to a good college. His mother starts to cry but they're happy tears and she tells him that she is proud of him. She then asks me what my hopes and dreams are. I tell her and then she remains silent. I figured I said something wrong. She asks me to go out of the room a minute, and I do. I think in my head and I start talking to myself quietly, so she can't hear and would think I was crazy. I try to block out the noises around me and when I do, I don't hear anything around me but my own voice in my head telling me to not give up the dream that I am wanting. I hear it tell me that even when people don't understand the dream of going to Julliard would be wonderful for me, I know that it should make me want that dream fulfilled even more. It should make me want to work harder and harder towards my goals. I go back in the room, and I hear him apologize for his mother's behavior and his mother says sorry to me. She tells me it was wrong to not congratulate me on the things that mattered to me and she started sobbing, and asking me for forgiveness. I told her that it was okay and that I forgive her for what she didn't mean to say or didn't even say. I hope that she knows, that I love her and that she's forgiven by not only her family, me, but by God who loves her the most of all because He sent His Son to die on the cross for our sins, and when she heard that she cried happy tears and she knew that she was loved and forgiven by all that loved her. I prayed with her that day, and then I left and said goodbye. They both said goodbye, and I went back to where my mom was waiting for me. We finally had gone home, after visiting my dad, our neighbor, and those we haven't seen in a very long time.

A Girl's Journey To Julliard Part Six

My mom answers the phone and I make sure that I'm quiet as a mouse because I don't want to say anything if it's bad news. I hear the doctor ask if this was the Carson residence and my mom says no. She gives them our last name, and then the doctor ask if she knew how to get a hold of Mr. Carson because it was important. She then proceeds to give the doctor the number for their household but then my mom asks how dad is. The doctors tell her fine and that he can come home tomorrow. The doctor hangs up with mom and we cry tears of joy. Although we didn't know what the doctors were going to say for Mrs. Carson. We prayed that everything was going to be alright. The doctors that day called Mr. Carson and as he answered he asked many questions and the first question was why did they not know that she needed a treatment for low sugar, and his other question was how come they were just now using an iv treatment to get insulin into her body? His questions were answered but the doctors had told him that because the insulin had to be given through an iv treatment, they were going to keep her over night for observation and if all goes well, she should be home by tomorrow morning. We knew Mr. Carson was relieved when he learned his wife was going to be okay and that she had a team of doctors taking care of her. He was happy for us too, because he wanted my dad to come home. My mom and I decided that we would go to the store and get some groceries but also we thought we would go and get a small non expensive gift to welcome dad home. When we arrived home, we put things away and then we decided to wrap the small gift in a box and then put on the living room table that was a small oak table that was hand carved and made by my dad. My mom and I then decide to go to the hospital and visit my dad and Mrs. Carson. To our surprise we see Mr. Carson and he lets us know that we was going to be spending the night here because he wanted to be able to bring his wife home, and he tells us how dad has told him that there is a program for people who go and meet with those who have gone through the surgery procedure that him and Mr. Carson's wife have gone through, and when they meet, they share their own testimonies and share how the experience has transformed their lives from their time in the hospital to when they have arrived home. Mr. Carson tells his wife, he is going to the hospital cafeteria to eat and he'll be back soon. We visit with dad and we tell him the good news that happened with me and my dad couldn't be prouder of me. I tell him that I'm somewhat nervous attending, but he tells me that I don't need to be. He tells me why I don't need to be nervous and I smile and give him a hug. We tell him we will see him tomorrow. He tells me goodbye and I wait in the hall, while mom and dad are still talking to each other. While, I'm waiting a boy that is the same age as me, comes towards me and starts to introduce himself. Although, while he's doing that I can't help but think that he seems very familiar to me. He seems so familiar, that you would think I would know where I saw him before or how I knew him, but my mind keeps drawing a blank of how I would have met him or where I saw and knew him from. I mean, I know it is crazy to say all of that, but it's just something about him, that I can't place.

A Girl's Journey To Julliard Part Five

I read the letter and it says: To whom it may concern, we're happy to announce the acceptance of Miss Jillian Smith, who will be attending our school this fall. We look forward to meeting you and hoping that as we get a chance to meet you that you will feel welcome throughout the year. If you have any questions, please never hesitate to ask as we look forward to being helpful to all of our students who attend Julliard. Some of the rules we require all students to follow, are being polite, listening to all instructors, not starting any fights, making sure that when it is the right time for lights out in our dorms or housing that the students have the lights out, otherwise it will result in one warning and if it happens more than once after the warning is given then it is a detention or trip to one of our offices that will then decide whether the person who broke any of our rules, which you will read more of in your handbook that we sent in the packet, is able to stay at our school or not. We want all students to be respectful and make sure that everyone has a good time. In order for any student to graduate from Julliard they must complete a 4 year study with us and then, they must find a place to live and find a decent job after graduation. Our students who have gone from here, they have found great jobs and then they followed the career they have been wanting ever since they came here. Some of our students have even made it to Broadway. The first week all students will meet in the auditorium to meet with an alumni that has been here before and each new student will get the opportunity to ask questions and the alumni will be in different parts of campus from the morning every new student arrives, till at least lunch because then they need to leave to get back to the dreams they have successfully made for themselves and the jobs they got on their own. We ask that you bring what you need with you and if you have forgotten anything from home, then we will provide it for you. We ask that all cell phones be turned off when it's lights out, so that each student can get the rest they need and if it is a emergency that you need to use a phone, we ask that you let us know before all lights in the dorm or housing are out because we need time to prepare with making sure our phones work, and didn't go out because of a storm. We ask that all new students are kind and helpful to others if they don't understand something. We look forward to having you this fall, and hope your experience here at Julliard is wonderful. Sincerely, Julliard President Jordan Johnson. P.S. If you need to reach the school before you come in the fall, please call 419-892-4569 and we will be happy to answer any questions that you may have. I was so happy that I could scream. I didn't though, but I was just so very happy that it felt like a weight has just been lifted off of my shoulders and that it was one less thing I had to worry about. I see mom walk into the kitchen and she wonders what I'm smiling about, and I hand her the letter. She reads it silently for a moment and then gives me a hug. I know she is proud of me and she tells me congratulations. The phone rings and it is the hospital.

A Girl's Journey To Julliard Part Four

Today was Saturday, so I got the mail. I came back with get well cards for Mrs. Carson, dad, bills for mom, and an envelope for me that was about to decide my future of where I was going to be after high school. I was a little nervous because I didn't know what I was going to do. I mean what if I don't accepted into Julliard? What if I fail high school, and then I don't get into a good college? I mean things like this can happen in life and what if my parents are not proud of me, if it happens? I am so nervous in opening, that I throw up. I didn't think my nerves would get the best of me, over what could be an acceptance letter or a rejection letter. I'm so nervous that I start crying and believing the things I've asked and then I pace back and forth like I'm making a decision and I can't do anything. I am so nervous that after I stop pacing back and forth, I drink water and eat a snack. Once I stop doing that, mom comes home. She knows something is wrong, otherwise she wouldn't have found a way for me to calm down. She knows that every time I get this way about anything, that I need to take a breather and remind myself that I can accomplish great things in life. I open the envelope and what I find as I open it, is a letter from Julliard. I didn't know what to do. I mean this letter was just about to decide where my future is going to take me in the next year after I finish high school. I mean I've waited for this day to come, so many times and now that it is finally here, I'm nervous because I'm not sure what the letter will say. My mom tries to tell me that no matter what happens that her and dad will always be proud of me, and that even if I don't get accepted it is not the end of the world, because God's plan for my life will continue to work out because God is always there for us, no matter what we go through. I know that what she is saying is the truth and that I shouldn't worry so much, but this is just been my dream for awhile now, and I don't want to feel like my work has gone unnoticed, to any school. I want any school to know that I'm a hard worker, and that I have potential to be on Broadway someday, because that's another dream of mine. I want to make it on Broadway and preform for others, so that they can be happy. Now, in order for me to do that, I need to find out what the letter reads. So I finally take the letter out of the envelope, to read it.

A Girl's Journey To Julliard Part Three

My dad arrived back at the hospital where we live, and in 2015 I knew things were going to be good. I mean that is what I thought, but in 2016 dad got sick again, and even though test results didn't show that the cancer had come back, new results showed that he had pneumonia but they were able to treat it here, so I would be able to see him more. I was happy about that and I prayed that dad would get better. Mrs. Carson, told me that year that my dad was a fighter and he will be back in this house in no time. I wanted to believe her but I had some hope and some of that hope seem to drift a little ways away from me, because in 2017 dad got better and was healed of the pneumonia. I know what you're probably thinking, why is that bad news? It's not, the bad news however was we found out that my dad's right kidney was failing, and he needed a transplant. I wanted to have the hospital test me to see if I were a match for him, but mom wouldn't let me without her consent. I did talk to her, and she told me she didn't know because if I wasn't then she would feel poorly about not knowing who would be a match for dad. I understood that, but she was going to let me anyway. Mrs. Carson that day, drove me to the hospital and the doctors tested me, and my mom. We were not a match. They then tested Mrs. Carson, and she was a match. So that day they got Mrs. Carson and my dad ready for surgery and my mom and I waited for the doctor to bring us back to a hospital room so we could see dad, once the surgery was over. A few hours later, a nurse came to us and told us that the surgery was well for both of them and that we can see them now. I was relieved to know that and I couldn't believe how much stress and anxiety left my body, because of how worried I was. My dad told me that once he gets out of the hospital, he promises me that no matter what happens with my future of getting accepted into Julliard or not, that he will always be proud of me and that if I do get accepted, he is going to be with mom, and Mrs. Carson watching a performance of mine. I cried a little tear of happiness that day. My dad hugged me, and I did back. Mrs. Carson, however told me to not give up on following my dreams. She told me this because she was wanting me to know that no matter what happens in my life that God is in control and as long as I'm trusting in Him, His plan for my life will continue to unfold.

A Girl's Journey To Julliard Part Two

I wonder if things were going to get easier but I saw that the phone was ringing. I looked at the caller id and it was the hospital.I quickly stop reading and hand the phone to mom. Mom answers the phone and goes outside, so I can't hear. I dislike when she goes outside when she gets the phone because well what if it's important that I need to know something that is going on with my own father? I mean a kid should know. I put on my headphones and start listening to music, and here's how the conversation with the people at the hospital and my mom went. The doctor called my mom and told her that my dad was going to be kept overnight. When my mom asked why, the doctor said to her that they want to run some tests overnight to rule any possibility of my dad having pneumonia or some other illness that would be causing the nausea my dad has been experiencing in the last few days. My mom then hung up and called our next door neighbor and when she came back in, she stopped my music and told me that our neighbor Mrs. Carson was coming over to watch me, while she went to go check on dad at the hospital. I told her that I wanted to go with her, but she told me that it was out of the question, and she call here if there were any new updates about dad. I understood where she was coming from, and kissed her on the cheek. She told me she loved me and not to stress so much, because dad would be fine. I wanted to believe her that year, I truly did but in 2014 my dad was transferred to a hospital in Boston because he had a thing called leukemia which is a form of cancer. The doctors where I live, caught it early and although they couldn't treat it here, my dad had to go in a special private airplane with my mom to be flown to one of the best hospitals in Boston. Which meant Ali Carson, or as I call her Mrs. Carson was spending however long she needed to be with me, while my parents were far away. As I got older I wondered if dad would be okay. I mean a girl needs her dad and her mom to make sure that nothing bad can ever come from this. We go to the year 2015 and mom finally called, she told Mrs. Carson that dad was doing much better and they're going to transport him back to our hospital, so that they can monitor him, but that the good news was they think they got rid of getting everything that was bad out of my dad's body, so that he could be well. I was so happy because I knew things were going to work out and everything was going to be fine. 

A Girl's Journey To Julliard Part One

I dreamed of going to Julliard ever since I was little and could walk. My parents noticed that when I was five years old, that I had a real talent for dancing and acting. My mom would take me to a kids theater not too far from where we lived in Colorado. I remember I would be in most plays and musicals but either as a dancer or someone who had a small part as a daughter to a rich person, or I played a tree in a different play. I was scared at my audition when I was six because this wasn't a play about doing stuff that a five year old kid would get to do. I felt nervous and I was trying to figure out what I would sing because at this audition you had to sing. I actually broke down and cried because when I tried to sing, I froze and some of the other girls much older than me at the time, laughed at me. They laughed at me, because I was frozen. I was frozen and ran off stage and my mom wrapped her arms around me and stroked my hair and then lifted my chin up and told me not to worry. She said to me that I can do this and be proud of myself for being able to earn an audition at children's theater in New York. You see when I was five we moved from Colorado and moved to New York on my sixth birthday. So take it to now when I'm at the audition, I get a hold of myself and I walk back out on the stage with confidence. I sing a song that my mom sang to me since I was little and the casting director gave me positive criticism that will help me in the real world when I get older. The casting director asked me what I wanted to do when I get older and I told him that I wanted to go to Julliard and be a dancer and actress.  The casting director told me that I am going to get my chance and bigger things will happen when they're supposed to happen. Alright, I guess you're wondering where is my dad in this picture. Well my dad has always been in my life and up till now as I continued to grow up and go to wonderful christian schools I noticed that things at home weren't great. If we flash back to the year 2013 that was when my dad who used to be an accountant would be happy but in reality it was going to be difficult. When I say it was going to be difficult, I mean that was the year that things for my mom, my dad, and I started going downhill. I was doing what any kid would do, being at home doing my own thing and then all of a sudden my dad started throwing up. I know what you're probably thinking, why even mention the word throw up? Well see this is the part of the story where we all went in the car and went to the doctor's office. When we arrived my parents were seen by the doctor right away. I had to wait in the waiting room with the receptionist and she talked to me for awhile and asked me what I wanted to do when I grew up. I told my dreams to her and she told me the same thing the casting director did. I then couldn't help but wonder will my shot as a performer happen for me and will my dad, along with my mom see any of the performances? These are things I asked myself and then I saw just my mom come out to take me back home without dad. I saw the bravery in her eyes because she always puts a brave face on for me when she doesn't want me to worry. We finally arrive home and I question her about why dad didn't come with us. Then I see mom coming to me and she tells me that the doctor wanted to run some tests and make sure that everything was fine. I knew that there was more she wasn't telling me but I decided to not push her. I could see she was already stressed and worried with other things and I decided to go and read a book.

Blog Post Update

I started a story blog series back in 2019, and some of you may remember that I divided it into parts. Well when I ended that story series, I realized that people were enjoying it. So what I thought I do, is every other month do a new story type series that will either be based on true events or not. So for this month stay tuned and find out tomorrow if a new series is going to be able to be ready for all of you to read or if you're going to have to wait another day or next week. I want to try doing another story series, while I'm working on a second book which will be separate from this project again. You see, I love making people happy. I love making them happy with the talents that God has given me. I may be a person who has Hydrocephalus and has some learning disabilities but what I know is that doesn't stop me from giving joy to other people. It doesn't stop me from following my dreams and it certainly doesn't stop me from reaching my goals. I know that whatever I come up with, no matter if people like it or not, I know that I'm not trying to impress or trying to make people love or like something because I know not everyone will and that's okay. I mean if everyone liked the same things then there would be no need to really have a conversation with anyone because you would already know what to talk about. If everyone liked the same things then there wouldn't be a need to discuss much because eventually talking about things that you once liked talking about might not be interesting to you or your friends, because you already had the same conversation. I'm not saying you can never talk about stuff like that again, no I'm saying that even if you like one thing and the other person doesn't, then that doesn't make any one of you a bad person, it just helps you know and learn about the person and yourself, because you can still remain friends and have different things that you like, have things in common, and if someone thinks it's crazy that you didn't grow up with a movie or show they did growing up, then that's okay because it shouldn't matter if you saw it or not, because eventually when we do see the show or movie that our friends saw or our siblings saw growing up, then that gives us the choice to decide whether we liked it or not. If we didn't or you, yourself didn't like it and you express your opinion about it, then that's fine because again not everyone is going to like the same shows or movies. Does it make you weird or strange if you don't? No, not at all. So, until tomorrow, please stay tuned to find out if a new story series will.be releasing tomorrow or not.